A God Worth Worshiping?
Few things offend me more than the assertion that the world both makes sense and points to a God worth worshipping.
I read this line in a blog I was reading ealier tonight. This girl is an ACU student. One who regularly does weekend campaigns.
Lately I've been very much caught up in questions about the system I exist within. Right now I'm struggling mightily on how to approach this thing called seminary which exists within this institution of the Christian school which is a product of an organization called church. I have trouble accepting some tenets of all three of those structures. Frankly, I hate them at times.
However, I'm not struggling with my acceptance of the worshipfulness of God. My struggles with what I'm doing right now come primarily out of my desire to live a life of true mission - one that is serving God, worshipping him in a daily context, and joining with others in his kingdom without the baggage of these fattened, bloated, self-serving systems that seem to try to call themselves "community." I fight with doubt about God. But he seems to always overcome that in some subtle or overt way, showing me, often in a whisper, that he is mighty and active. Yes, I serve a God worth worshipping. In a world that makes sense? Maybe, maybe not.
Things lately that don't seem to make sense: why one of my best friends has to have stage 3 stomach cancer now after enduring emergency surgery on her ribs and lungs because of something evil that happened to her. After having her brother commit suicide. After her mom slowly dying. Also, two of my friends may have to leave China because the government may be onto the fact that they have been having people into their home to teach them about Christ. Also, graduate school doesn't really make a lot of sense. Not in the Christian context.
But I've decided that even for my 23 year old friend who may die from cancer, everything is still gain. Everything. Why? Because she found Christ. And because she had life, and life in Christ, everything is gain. What we deserve is nothing. Not even life. I may lose her. But what I have with her is nothing but gain. If God takes her, it will be horrifically painful, but it still will have been nothing but gain for me. That's the kind of thing that makes God worth worshipping: life itself doesn't really make sense, but every bit of it exists, and is gain, because God has decided to continue to allow us something that we don't deserve. To live is Christ. Literally.
I read this line in a blog I was reading ealier tonight. This girl is an ACU student. One who regularly does weekend campaigns.
Lately I've been very much caught up in questions about the system I exist within. Right now I'm struggling mightily on how to approach this thing called seminary which exists within this institution of the Christian school which is a product of an organization called church. I have trouble accepting some tenets of all three of those structures. Frankly, I hate them at times.
However, I'm not struggling with my acceptance of the worshipfulness of God. My struggles with what I'm doing right now come primarily out of my desire to live a life of true mission - one that is serving God, worshipping him in a daily context, and joining with others in his kingdom without the baggage of these fattened, bloated, self-serving systems that seem to try to call themselves "community." I fight with doubt about God. But he seems to always overcome that in some subtle or overt way, showing me, often in a whisper, that he is mighty and active. Yes, I serve a God worth worshipping. In a world that makes sense? Maybe, maybe not.
Things lately that don't seem to make sense: why one of my best friends has to have stage 3 stomach cancer now after enduring emergency surgery on her ribs and lungs because of something evil that happened to her. After having her brother commit suicide. After her mom slowly dying. Also, two of my friends may have to leave China because the government may be onto the fact that they have been having people into their home to teach them about Christ. Also, graduate school doesn't really make a lot of sense. Not in the Christian context.
But I've decided that even for my 23 year old friend who may die from cancer, everything is still gain. Everything. Why? Because she found Christ. And because she had life, and life in Christ, everything is gain. What we deserve is nothing. Not even life. I may lose her. But what I have with her is nothing but gain. If God takes her, it will be horrifically painful, but it still will have been nothing but gain for me. That's the kind of thing that makes God worth worshipping: life itself doesn't really make sense, but every bit of it exists, and is gain, because God has decided to continue to allow us something that we don't deserve. To live is Christ. Literally.
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