What does this mean? I'm helping one of my LIFE group members load up her bike when my phone rings. My Greek professor wants to check in about our meeting but we end up deciding I need to withdraw from the class. My self-disappointment rages and my M.Div course sequence is now altered for the worse for the future.

I come into my room and sit on my computer for a bit, contemplating my failure, when my IM pops up with a message from a girl saying "I love lifegroup!!!! I love it I love it!!"

What is success? What is failure? I am in a huge conflict right now because I'm not really sure of that answer. Right now I'm failing in some ways in front of the religious elite of Abilene, Texas and the intellectual scholar community of the church. But then I get a small message like that and I wonder what things are really about.