Tomorrow I hit the road for a little taste of the home life. First stop will be in the heart of Soonerland, where I'll (hopefully) spend at least a little quality time with a friend and probably do some sitting in the Will Rogers room at the Union and pretend to write some more of this infamous Leviticus paper. Then on to T-town where I'll gorge on chex mix and chocolate covered Ritz cracker sandwiches with peanut butter in the middle. My mom is already getting nostalgic about me helping make those.

So, it's going to be a great week, I just wish this infernal paper wasn't hanging over my head. What makes me mad is that I could have had it done by now. And I'm probably not going to make a good grade in that class anyway. Siiiiigh. I've voluntarily made this thing into a bad dream - maybe because deep down I want this thing to be brilliant and perfect and it's just simply not going to be and it's only a few pages only one person is going to read who already knows far more about the subject than I ever will and has a thousand others to read just like it. I don't know why I get so obsessed over trying to make research papers some kind of watershed work that I end up not even working on them. I wish I would just view it as something to get done rather than feel like it was worth pouring myself into so that it makes a difference. That the sad advice I get from all of my older GST friends - just get the work done and forget about it. Dude, that was good advice for undergraduate. I came here to learn about the most important stuff in the universe. Why are the students of this information reduced to having to view it as "stuff to get done" and move on? I'm constantly amazed at how seperate the activities of the academy are from the real work of God in the world. My Old Testament professor explicitly told us to not include any kind of application to the ideas in our paper. Wow.