I know for sure that God has put me on a big path of healing over the last few months. But one very noticeable side effect of my experiences lately is that I don't trust ministers, especially ones I don't know. This runs counter to all of the policies I have ever generated in myself regarding other people. I have always felt that I should trust people unless they prove that they cannot be trusted. But now everytime I see a minister I can't help but wonder if he is for real or not. The big obvious problem with this is that I plan on being in ministry.

It hits me hardest when I walk around in Christian bookstores. I love Christian books and literature, but there is no escaping the fact that there is a lot of fluff and self-promotion among Christian writers. I really bristle now at the ones with the author's face on the entire cover of the book, for no really good reason. The title may be "Letting God Rule" but the cover is a giant portrait of the author. Why? Let your message speak for God, not your ego.