Alrighty, for all of you people scattered across the globe who I don't make it around to calling everyday, yes, I have decided not to go to Kansas State. I seemed to have failed to make that known on this blog.

This may come as a surprise to some, because the KState opportunity, on paper, matched what I have been longing to do. Campus Ministry. At a major Division I school. In a college town. With a church that has a pretty good vision of campus ministry. I spent several days with them, I really liked them - it would have been a good experience. There were a few things that I thought could have been better about the apprenticeship and such, but there is no place that is going to be perfect. I sat in Charles Siburt's office the other day as he berated me for not taking the job, which is based totally on what he thinks I think of Abilene. As the king of all practical men, he doesn't quite understand my reasoning.

I sat in High Impact Praise a couple of weeks ago, surrounded by hundreds of college students, participating in powerful worship. It was then that the spirit did what I suppose he could do all the time if I would let him - he moved. He moved on me with the words and the desire to stay in Abilene. He helped me realize on a more conscious level that there is much that he has wanted to do with me here, so much that I have yet to realize or experience here - too much to escape somewhere else simply because it matches my desires of the moment and is a ticket out of the ridiculously Christianized world of Abilene. I've said from the beginning that I feel like God brought me here in part to round off some rough edges I have about places like this, and I know that he is not done with me yet. He has not completed my Abilene chapter - not in schooling, not in ministry, not spiritually, not socially.

Does this mean I won't be considering other opportunities that arise? Of course not. God does what he wants when he wants to do it. I'm just along for the ride. Always have been. But at the same time he always gives us the power to decide for ourselves - but never without important guidance.

So, as strange as it sounds considering where I've been and things I've said, I have openly recommitted to Abilene. Ferocious things are still out there. Undiscovered things. Wonderful things.