Satan's Masterwork
Lately I've been facing the horrific masochistic realities of eating disorders. I've always known this was a reality in the world around me, but have never been as close to the problem as I am now. It is so painful seeing a beautiful young woman waste her body and spirit away because of the vicious lies of Satan that she so wholeheartedly believes. To have an attractive, goal-oriented college student telling you, through tears, that she wants her body to be emaciated and wasting away because it would match how she feels inside is truly heartbreaking. For the mind to become so weakened by deprivation that it only makes things worse by telling you that your sip of water is loaded with calories is a kind of self-mutilating self-destruction that is beyond words. In this kind of abuse not only is the soul damaged but the physical heart slowly begins to digress into a slow, coma-like state because it simply does not have what it takes to pump. It is a form of self-loathing that is complete in almost every way - it cuts you off from people by making them (in your own mind) your judge and enemy, it destroys your body, it warps your mind, it perverts healthy activity into self-destructive overexercise, it erodes you spiritually (by convincing you that not even God can accept you), and, if left uncontrolled, kills you. It is almost the perfect Satanic package.
I have been left feeling powerless in some ways because it is not a problem I can truly understand. But I know that is not what I am called to. I know that God wants to use me and others to somehow crack open the door of his power and love to those who have blinded themselves to it. To serve as a connecting point to the help that they really need and the people that can truly guide them on a path that they have been on before and overcome by the power of God. To be someone who really can be trusted and show that genuine trust and non-judgment is possible. I'll be honest, it is emotionally taxing, but looking to God to be the savior and not myself really helps keep that balance.
Real life. Wow.
How I wish this was not so deadly accurate.
I have been left feeling powerless in some ways because it is not a problem I can truly understand. But I know that is not what I am called to. I know that God wants to use me and others to somehow crack open the door of his power and love to those who have blinded themselves to it. To serve as a connecting point to the help that they really need and the people that can truly guide them on a path that they have been on before and overcome by the power of God. To be someone who really can be trusted and show that genuine trust and non-judgment is possible. I'll be honest, it is emotionally taxing, but looking to God to be the savior and not myself really helps keep that balance.
Real life. Wow.
How I wish this was not so deadly accurate.
while i agree with you that the lies these women hear about their bodies are ultimately from satan, i like to keep things "practical." essentially, i don't want to let the media/society off the hook for how they perpetuate a hatred for women's bodies. if you watch television and the movies, you are generally going to see impossible standards of beauty, one of them being extreme thinness. as a woman who is trying to eat healthy and exercise, but will never ever look like that, it's extremely discouraging. i think in my head, "hey, my body just won't do that, and that's okay...i'm beautiful anyway," but i still feel bad about my body. it makes me so angry that i have this war going on my heart, because that's not the way it should be. and most women in america have a certain amount of dissatisfaction with their bodies. now there's a pill women can take to get rid of their periods completely! i think this is yet another way for women to view their bodies as abnormal and broken. argh.
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